Someone said I was a walking contradiction... no, that's not true... there was once a prince, who fell in love with a servant woman. He told her that she was a walking contradiction. But I feel like that sometimes.
V got her acceptance email from NY today. That means that now there is an actual decision to make. To go or not to go, that is the question... talking with V though, trying to figure out the whole situation she told me "ugh, we are two very complicated people"... and yes. She has a point there.
My sister asked me tonight what I was thinking about. She had been talking for quite a while, saying things I assume only her complicated mind can fashion, then she entered into a detailed description of things that had happened in her heart over some time away. It got me thinking... again.
About making the right decisions. About growing. About facing life and facing reality. About love and about fighting.
I want to write more, but I'm afraid it would all be vain writing. The issues in my heart are not in order, and going over them in writing would just be giving them permission to take over.
One thing I know... I'll rise up. For the Lord, He is my maker, my creator. He holds me in the palm of His hand.
He has searched me and known me. He understands me. He hedges me behind and before and his hand is laid upon me. I cannot get away from His Spirit. I am fearfully and wonderfully made...
and tomorrow, when I awake, I will still be with You. I am. Forever, still with You.
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apoyo el comentario de V, la verdad somos personas algo complicadas, pero lo bueno es que no nos movemos, hasta que Dios nos de la direccion, para hacer su voluntad. He estado pasando por algo similar, pero decidi dejarselo a Dios y se que si es su voluntad me ire, y sino esperare...
Besides money, there isn't really anything I can think of that you can actually lose and/or waste by going. My 2 cents, anyway.
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